How am I suppose to get over you when you keep being so wonderful? I am glad you came over to hang last night But it's hard to hate you when you keep Making me smile blush like a little girl.
On a lighter note. In April of last year I weighed... 144, I now weigh...122. Yes. 22 pounds. I super happy.
So I may or may not be moving into my one bedroom. My parents want my sister to live with them until the baby comes or whatever so she can save up money for it, but that leaves her roommate...roommate-less, so I might be moving in with her. Which is fine with me, for the most part. I love Lauren. Shes like a 3rd sister, and shes pretty cool.
But I still dont know what I want to do yet.
When you're in love with someone who loves someone else, you try to be the bigger person right? I am trying to be. But I keep shrinking.
....Stupid. Me? Of course. It wouldn't be the first time and it's surely not the last.
Breath. Thats all I can do. I need to ... concentrate on being an aunt. Thats the most exciting thing in my life right now. I want to be a great one and spoil him or her like crazy.
I hate that I pushed him away And pretty sure for good. He's leaving for 5 months and could Be getting deployed right after. I don't like being alone, can't he understand. And, I am tired of feeling like I am always wrong. Everything I seem to say he laughs Or corrects me on things. I dont mind being corrected but it's The way he says it or does it. Maybe I need to grow up even more... I'm only 19... What am I doing??
I saw Alice in Wonderland last night. Wasn't as awesome as I thought it would be. The plot has nothing at all to do with the book or movie, And it was a bit... Dull.
I am happy I get to be an aunt. I wish I could be the nanny because I would be the Best nanny in the world, and spoil it! But I know Lauren has that job. So Someone better have another child Soon so I can be one dammit. Lolz.
Life seem so pleasurable these days and Everyone seems to spoil it. :(